The year that was..

There is no time.... yet the imaginary calendar that we bind ourselves to is telling us that the year has come to an end... wow!!!!  The lessons that the past 365 days and nights taught me. 

I do not know if they have made any difference to my life but they are precious experiences...

Here goes nothing ...

• Worked on very interesting projects including Kanda, Escalator Clause, Kalpa, Maya , Sita and Musical Combat .
  
• Learnt that a few people are just oppurtunists and not necessarily friends and distanced myself from these breed of individuals .
• Realized the drawbacks of obsession.
• Managed to recover from a very bad heart break.
• Learnt that time heals all wounds.
• Got to meet some amazing people who have lived art .
• Lived in Delhi for more than five months and experienced dilli and fell in love with the city.
• Realized that my free spirit was dampened and had to find it again.
• travelled to Switzerland and walked the ramp .
• Worked on a dance film Kalpa.
• My best friend had a baby and I have'nt managed to spend time with the angel and the mother.
• I was not around when my best friend broke her leg.
• Met Mandeep, Anusha and Mehneer at GATI forum.. Amazing souls .. love them!
• One of the best pieces that I danced was emotionally the most painful one to create.
• Have kept away from possessive individuals and also learning not to be possessive.
• The definition of love was changed .. now .. there is no definition!
• Felt the need to smoke... a little bit self destructive  .. What the hell!
• Met some amazing children Nitzana, charvi, maya, vishaq, pranava , arjun, tutus , anantha, and now I want to spend more time with Dhriti.
• My computer crashed and i managed to lost all my data, music, photographs and other important info.. A huge part of my past erased.. felt ecstatic about it.
• Fell in love with the Veena .. the teacher was really good but have not been able to go to classes since delhi.
• Met Shweta ..a sweet soul in Delhi... Found an amazing friend in her and connected with her beautifully.
• went to the Himalayas for a trek.
• Saw a full moon night in BAdrinath.
• Found a companion in an old friend.
• Went on a road trip and discovered some amazing places around Mysore.. a few water falls and also went to Biligirirangana hills...Beautiful ride!
• Spent a lot of time in Kerala and started learning the Kalari foot massage from Ranjan Sir. Shall continue intense training when I get back to Bangalore.
• Walked to the valley of flowers again. 
• Hemkund did not happen ... the weather was very rough!
• Caught Swine flu and was critically ill for two weeks. The Lall Family nursed me back to health... They saved my life .. I cannot thank them enough!
• Went to Chandralekha's place and also Adishakthi in Pondichery .. Short and sweet trip with lovely friends.
• Working on my cubist sketches.. and enjoying them immensly.
• Enjoying my solitude.
• Lost a friend due to issues concerning money matters.
• Realizing that my sister is growing super fast. She is getting prettier , smarter and experiencing beautiful things in life . Very happy for her growth.
• Pappa died!!!  Madam lost her father....I saw Mudra lost .... Death silences everything!
• Trying to love again without the fear of getting hurt .
• Loving life
• Living life!
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Purana qila through my poor mobile!

just capturing the sky with my tiny mobile camera!

Waiting for my night!

The heart feels like a ray of sun light that has been rejected by the moon. 

It wanders the dark night and finds a place in the serenity of one's eyes. 

The snow lit mountains of Badrinath talk to the twinkling stars. 

The river has something to say but the rocks seem to silence her song.

 The solitude finds refuge in a corner as it managed to walked out of its den tonight. 

Will I be able to talk to her? My heartless rude cruel dark night .

 I ll count my dreams in her arms . Death calls me from the banks of Banaras.

The river they say gives life to the bygones of yesterday .

What do they have to say?. The pile of dry wood that burn the mortality of men..

Please vanquish this light , i want to embrace the darkness..

My loyal night waits for me !!!

Life as it sucks!

Its been a while...

Its been a while that I have been alive.

It is simply beyond comprehension to beat the boredom of life.

You travel, you meet new people, you gain more experience, more books, explore more , create more, listening to interesting tales, interesting music and travel more, have more adventure and ya da ya da yada...

What next ???

What more???

I had a spirit .. an amazing spirit.. A heart that loved and lived every moment .

Heart Breaks are wonderful Bulldozers of life! they just manage to uproot the zest for life...

I have been quarantined in a place far from home for almost ten days now.. I have hardly spoken to anyone nor have I had any kind of human contact.. Sleep has been my saviour. When your body is battered you have no idea what you are battling in life for . It seems like I have lost my communicative skills and also the thirst for communication.

I have to finish a few assignments and also write a few proposals . Find interesting work and travel where my work takes me. Homeless and directionless... Just a traveller.

It has been interesting to fall ill for more than two weeks . Loads of medicine till the inner layer of my stomach has given up hopes of survival, bland food and to have not seen the outside world for more than two weeks... I have no been this bored since I was in my mother's womb. 

How many books do you read? How many movies? How many people do you call? How much time do you spend on the internet ? How many sketches and paintings?

My body has lost all its strength .. all the stamina ... 

I need to get back to dancing but not yet .. I need to still stay locked in for the safety of others...

I need to till I have finished the entire course of medicine. 

I saw the moon through my window tonight! It looks beautiful...

I have been bored for a while...

I hope life has a bit more meaning!

Hope!

A preview!

A preview

http://www.timeoutbengaluru.net/dance/dance_review_details.asp?code=89

Quarantined series!

Practise seeing beauty LOVE/DEATH/DEVIL

This is the title of Ben J. Riepe's new work. Just managed to watch the piece after a drive through crazy traffic and long rehearsals. Made it on time!!! 

Is it an instillation? A painting? A movie? A chorographic work? A photograph? 

The piece was a  treat . It manages to trigger certain emotions or pull those strings that seem to resonate the precise note from our memories. It was a visual treat , filled with images that would simply stirr your soul. A Dali's painting started to breathe or did it transport me to a different time zone. The synopsis said that the choreographer was on a quest for critical and future- oriented art that transcends the viewer's and his own artistic expectation with means that are beyond psycologisation( I have never heard  this word before) , narration and the conventions of contemporary dance. 

The choreographer had designed the piece with such accuracy that I felt like a molecule of sodium chloride in an experiment of electrolysis .The precision with which the piece was designed was simply commendable ,where the focus on detail was stressed on the smallest detail like the skin on the dancers' cheek to a much more elaborate understanding of the human mind. It broke all frontiers of a proscenium theatre production and explored and played with human perception .

It was a highly intellectual piece? Was it an emotional piece? A technical piece ? 

It was all of these and Ein said " Its a piece that moves you!"

Murphy's law and more !

• If anything can go wrong , it will!( esp with me)
• Nothing as easy as it looks!( music for sure!)
• If there is a possibility of many things going wrong , the one that causes the most damage will be the one to go wrong.
• Left to themselves- things tend to go from bad to worse.
• Whenever you set out to do something - something else must be done first.
• nature always sides with the hidden flaw.
• Mother Nature is a bitch.
• Smile- tomorrow will be worse
• Matter will be damaged in direct proportion to its value
• Do not lose heart....
• There is always an easier way to do it.
• When things are going well , something will go wrong.
• When things cannot get any worse, they will.
• No matter what goes wrong , it will probably look right!
• If an experiment works, something has gone wrong.
• If you found something important and you want to show it .. you ll never find it again!

Over the last week...

Random thoughts.. random musings!

spoke to the sea.. walked on sand..

watched the sun rise and the moon rise too..

travelled up north.. 

travelled down south...

watched a surreal performance ..- Love -Death and Devil... the visuals still haunt my mind.. like Dali's work in empty space.

watched 'Waiting for godot' come alive on stage.. loved Nazeeruddin shah.. what an actor???

what an actor? what a play? love Samuel Beckett!

had the most terrible performance of my life...

maya failed .. maya drove me nuts.. maya drove me insane..

enough is enough .. i had to leave.. professionalism just does not pay!

the ocean knows everything .. It has no reasons for its existence...

Lived the life of a legend as I danced in her space.. Chandra- You are amazing !

You will never leave us, with your work you shall always stay.

cannot wait to live more moments...

Homeless right now...with no where to stay ..

looking for a home in a nameless place..

In love.. in love .. inlove with life!