My journey from a firm believer of Rama, Krishna, Shiva , Brahma , Vishnu and all the 100 billion devas and devis that exist within the Hindu (culture) (religion)???? to a hopeless atheist..
Let me go back in time .. Well .. You can relive your past through memories.. Wow.. Do all animals remember their past .. Never mind.. Focus!!! Memory is your curse.. your boon... make use of it !
Wait... let me go back to my womb.. I was born out of the union of one of those random eggs with one in a million random sperm. do you call it divine intervention or sheer chance/luck/fate ??? I think its an accident. Being at the right/wrong time at the right place?
Any way .. I was born , I am so glad I do not remember the process of my birth , it would have been like entry into hell . One could say that the womb is heaven and hell is life. What say?
Anyway.. I had no clue of the existence of divinity till my first memory . What is my first memory ?History is so boring... let me cut it short.
Being a Bharatnatyam dancer, I had to believe in all the deities to be able to dance a piece. The guru was an embodiment of knowledge , divinity and more . Is respect love , is love a belief ?
Hmmmmm... when did the transition happen and why?
I should give the credit to contemporary dance. To look at dance, music and life objectively. I saw teachers as human beings with faults , emotions and eccentricity. Knowledge was everywhere and in everything to be sought . Art and life sans divinity . The moment - thats all that matters. ( At least I try)
I had a friend who believed in jesus and drew transparent crosses on my forehead to help me recover from a serious head injury. My mother feels that I get bad dreams because of an evil eye cast upon me . She has her small rituals to ward off the evil eye that totally entertains me. In India , its not just a religion that is part of an identity , your caste, your sub-caste, the deity you worship, the temple that you visit and the geographical location of that temple , the language etc etc becomes part of the identity.
The most weird phase of my life was when I worked with a researcher who helped me draw parallels between science and spirituality for a dance piece. His knowledge about the theory of relativity just flushed every ounce of religiosity in my system . He was away from home for more than two years and when he comes back for a visit , a very important task for him was visiting the temple of Tirupathi .
I respect people's beliefs and do not question of the power of faith..but can anyone force their belief upon me ? I have my own beliefs that there is no life after death.. I want my organs to be given away for a person more in need and let the rest be scattered into the river, sea, the sky and the ground beneath.. I ll be the dust for a plant, the food for a bird and filth in the sea... I do not know what i believe... especially when nothing is real :/
Enjoy , this is truly hilarious!
Let me go back in time .. Well .. You can relive your past through memories.. Wow.. Do all animals remember their past .. Never mind.. Focus!!! Memory is your curse.. your boon... make use of it !
Wait... let me go back to my womb.. I was born out of the union of one of those random eggs with one in a million random sperm. do you call it divine intervention or sheer chance/luck/fate ??? I think its an accident. Being at the right/wrong time at the right place?
Any way .. I was born , I am so glad I do not remember the process of my birth , it would have been like entry into hell . One could say that the womb is heaven and hell is life. What say?
Anyway.. I had no clue of the existence of divinity till my first memory . What is my first memory ?History is so boring... let me cut it short.
Being a Bharatnatyam dancer, I had to believe in all the deities to be able to dance a piece. The guru was an embodiment of knowledge , divinity and more . Is respect love , is love a belief ?
Hmmmmm... when did the transition happen and why?
I should give the credit to contemporary dance. To look at dance, music and life objectively. I saw teachers as human beings with faults , emotions and eccentricity. Knowledge was everywhere and in everything to be sought . Art and life sans divinity . The moment - thats all that matters. ( At least I try)
I had a friend who believed in jesus and drew transparent crosses on my forehead to help me recover from a serious head injury. My mother feels that I get bad dreams because of an evil eye cast upon me . She has her small rituals to ward off the evil eye that totally entertains me. In India , its not just a religion that is part of an identity , your caste, your sub-caste, the deity you worship, the temple that you visit and the geographical location of that temple , the language etc etc becomes part of the identity.
The most weird phase of my life was when I worked with a researcher who helped me draw parallels between science and spirituality for a dance piece. His knowledge about the theory of relativity just flushed every ounce of religiosity in my system . He was away from home for more than two years and when he comes back for a visit , a very important task for him was visiting the temple of Tirupathi .
I respect people's beliefs and do not question of the power of faith..but can anyone force their belief upon me ? I have my own beliefs that there is no life after death.. I want my organs to be given away for a person more in need and let the rest be scattered into the river, sea, the sky and the ground beneath.. I ll be the dust for a plant, the food for a bird and filth in the sea... I do not know what i believe... especially when nothing is real :/
Enjoy , this is truly hilarious!
We have all questioned a lot of things at some point of time.. A few of us weave those emotions and questions to words like you.. a few of us prefer to blend in with the rest to avoid more questions... Either ways we all have opinions but generally prefer the popular ones...!
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