I the robot?

I am entitled to have horrible days .. absolutely disgustingly horrible days. To sulk, whine, complain , nag are my birth rights. The first thing I did as I enter this world was cry . I cried because I was pushed into this world against my will and choice and I was forced the first responsibility of breathing. I should have revolted like many children and stopped inhaling air from a polluted atmosphere. Back then it was less polluted so may be I considered living for a change. I cried for attention, food, water, sleep, touch,  affection and almost everything that I wanted. Maturity, patience and tolerance are simply not my innate qualities. The presence of these factors is directly proportionate to my acceptance of society.

Have you found yourself trying to be mature 24/7 in a relationship? How long do you last before the inner child kicks in and you say something or do something stupid to create a havoc in serene waters of love and intimacy. 'Understanding' who came up with this word??? What is this thing with compatibility? oh! Do not get me started about attraction now!

I need a hug .. truly badly need a hug right now.. and I can cry , whine or crib but it does not make sense because i am not two years old anymore. Do you see the logic in this? Have been visiting the IT city in Bangalore for a summer workshop for the past two days. So many software engineers in the city . So many and all these bee hive buildings to imprison them with work and  more bee hive apartments to imprison them to family.
 I was glad I did not belong to this cocoon. I probably belong to another box where I am more bankrupt than the least paid employee here but aimlessness nevertheless. They are all working so hard but why? all their focus attention and time is consumed by this digital web. But why?
I do not say art is any better or less. But there is a sense being attached to your own emotions all the time.  It is impossible to create art like a machine unless you are copier machine making copies of the mona lisa. I am lost ! I truly am! to grow up I understand is about maturity , acceptance and embracing the world. Does it include de-sensitizing yourself? Locking your emotions? achieving mechanical perfection? I rather be an immature , stubborn imbecile then!