different walks

As children we always wanted to grow up and do all the cool things adults do. I do not remember feeling hopeless or bound by the world.. In fact I do not remember much before I went to school. I do not even remember myself.. I find that fascinating . Is memory in human beings is taught, learnt or innate? Do you remember the first time you fell ill or the clothes you wore, the food that you ate, the toys that you had, the music etc etc..
the other day I was watching a couple of birds fly near a lake in Bangalore. I was wondering if all the birds perched on the trees were watching all the humans. So If they do not have a job, mobile phones and televisions and many worldly duties and responsibilities what do they do when they have free time. Free time- when they are not eating, procreating, drinking, hunting or sleeping ( the basic survival tasks)
I have not met anyone who has made growing old sound like a lot of fun. You look at someone and say.. cool , I want grey hair and those beautiful wrinkles. Everyone wants to be stuck in their youth. Strong , dreamy  and beautiful youth. It was my birthday a couple of days ago..
Nothing profound to say.. just rejected proposals- no pay- loads of work are here to stay..
A dream that everything is going to be okay .. It has never been and will probably get worse.. But things are good as they are :)