Life ...
It has been..
There is..
Sometimes....
How do I start this god damn thing?
Phew! Academics can ruin your expression.. your voice !
It has been a very hectic month... I have had no social life , it has just been loads of studying, writing and working. The body , mind and if there is anything else has all been overloaded with work. I remember having sat in the tube in the morning inspired to blog my thoughts... What was it? What were thoughts? Where did they all go ? I simply cannot remember, I am sure they'll come back .... the thoughts find a way to ebb along your footsteps sooner or later..
There are multiple random things that are bombarding my brain right now.. I am going to start with one thing...
A friend told me a few days ago that my thinking is not "middle class" ...
Yup! I had a blank reaction! How do you react to a comment like this? Get angry , take offense, feel proud, wonder why? etc etc etc ..YES! the context is important ! But I ll not go there! It is about "being middle class" that intrigues me ...So I am not middle class because -
It has been..
There is..
Sometimes....
How do I start this god damn thing?
Phew! Academics can ruin your expression.. your voice !
It has been a very hectic month... I have had no social life , it has just been loads of studying, writing and working. The body , mind and if there is anything else has all been overloaded with work. I remember having sat in the tube in the morning inspired to blog my thoughts... What was it? What were thoughts? Where did they all go ? I simply cannot remember, I am sure they'll come back .... the thoughts find a way to ebb along your footsteps sooner or later..
There are multiple random things that are bombarding my brain right now.. I am going to start with one thing...
A friend told me a few days ago that my thinking is not "middle class" ...
Yup! I had a blank reaction! How do you react to a comment like this? Get angry , take offense, feel proud, wonder why? etc etc etc ..YES! the context is important ! But I ll not go there! It is about "being middle class" that intrigues me ...So I am not middle class because -
- I ask existential questions..
- I do not conform to the rules of the society
- I am not part of the system
- I question the social structure and institutions
- I do not want to own a house
- I do not want a stable job
- I do not want to have children
- I do not want to get married
- I do not want a family
- I do not abide to the request of my parents
- I am not "cultured"
- I am anti-social
- I am not rich
- I am not poor
- I am not intelligent
- I am not dumb
- I am too sensitive
- I am too numb
Apparently my thoughts belong to a different socio economic class! Phew!
Asking existential questions, questioning the system, looking at a liberal way of thinking - don't they plague individuals in every walk of life ... Aren't these thoughts classless in many ways! People will brand me a Marxist now! Categories! boxes and brands and labels! Enough!
I ll be laughed at... and I have to make an extra effort to not care... I have to ignore the hurt and pain and say that there are things that matter more... Find them !
Find cracks in the walls of the system, the crevices of society. Like a pest I need to lurk under the shadow of people's shitty thoughts. They come up with highly effective ways to eliminate an individual .. to eradicate this pest that hides in the hidden sewer of the society. I belong to a bloody class that has no place in the social strata. I am sure there is research being done to eliminate this virus .. to vanquish anything that disrupts the smooth functioning of this society! I am the dung beetle, the earth worm and the cockroach of this freaking clean society!
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